______Orsanovo 4.0 - Fall Calling ~ Coming Into My Own______

Friday, July 29, 2005

\\*Just friggin' depressed...Swallowing Double Edged Swords*//

Well actully acording to Rollo May I'm not.

"Depression is the inability to construct a future"

My problem is not with what I can't imagine or not imagine, I've got plenty of that. It's the fact of getting it done. It's all so damn frustrating.

Hurry up and wait is the story of my life.

I swear to god, planning for it all will be the death of me. I honestly think I'll never have that nice life I think of in those little in between moments. The one where i'm independent and living in a downtown city studio apartment; either walking or catching a bus to my job a few blocks down the street. It's not all that unrealistic, is it? Me living soley for myself? Making it on my own. Making intelligent decisions about finances, living arrangements,...wether to get some thai take out at that little place on the corner or cook up something.

Its not like I'm asking to live in a mansion on a hill, with maids and champion stock bichon frise' running around.

That'd be nice, but it wont happen unless I put in some major work for a lot of years (and get a good agent). I mean this may sound crazy but if given the choice I'd take the prior.

Joey's (brother) coming back from The Keys. He's depressed about coming back here. I feel him on it, more than he knows.

Well thats it I guess, night
AJ

Posted At|12:37 AM|

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Sunday, July 24, 2005

\\*The blogger's code..and many other important things*//

Did you know theres a bloggers code? Yeh me either. Apparently according to the Bloggers Code Survey I am:

My blogger code: B2 d- t- k- s-- u-- f- i- o++ x e++ l c++ (decode it!)

Dunh dun duh!
Dont' ask me what it means I dont know. However you can find out your standing against the code here http://www.leatheregg.com/bloggercode/
If you want to know what mine stands for use the handy dandy decoder they have up here: http://travis.kroh.net/archives/blogger_decoder.html. After you find out yours you can run it thought the decoder and pick up your html code, like the one i have above.

Apparently there is also the Geeks Code(http://www.geekcode.com/geek.html), just for fun i decided to cipher my personality against that list as well. My result:
GFA/PA d- s+:++ a---19 c++ u--- p l e? w++ n? o? k- w- o? m- v? ps+ pe+ y+ pgp- t-@stargate 5-@stargate x@stargate r tv(+) b(+)>b+++ di- d---- g e h-- r% x+

Posted At|1:59 PM|

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Sunday, July 10, 2005

\\*Blog Quickie? ...uh...what?*//

I'm in a punchy mood. My grandmother sees it as pissy. I keep finding more and more things that annoy me about my mind. errrr... mom. What a slip.

The paper counterpart "Postage" is getting a work out lately. 15 or so pages have been filled pages over the past three to four days.

On the other hand that ever-enduring need to really branch out and GO DO SOMETHING! is surging up again. An aunt teaches classes over at Michael's Crafts I was thinking about taking one. Learn how to make watches and sell 'em (There's always profit in mind right?). I was given one of the onse she made and it was really nice. Another thing I've been really into lately is Free-Ed.Com. I love this site. As I told my friend Will, It is so awesome to be learning about something that I'm truly intrested in instead of having something shoved down my throat. The Archaeology and English Composition video course are so wonderful. There are worse ways to kill an afternoon than, ya know expanding your mind.

Ok just finished taking notes for the eng comp first video....and im dead tired. Im going to bed. More about more later.

Night yall,
AJ

Posted At|9:15 PM|

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Saturday, July 02, 2005

\\*"Mom, if you just stop talking when I tell you to, our relationship will go much smoother..."*//

Short post tonight:

Mom's been in town for about a week.

OFFICIAL HISSY FIT COUNT: 4

It would been 5, roughly half an hour ago but she did'nt actully storm out of the room and slam the door so it does'nt count. My brother was giving her and e-lashing. Unlike a normal person she sits there and takes it instead of getting up and walking away. Always playing up the victim bit. Ugh...

On another note my brother actully cares for me as a human being, which is always nice to know.

I have neglected the online journaling a bit lately, in exchange for my handwritten one. I could say it's because I've had nothing going on, but it's very much the contrary. I've been busy....I went on vaction to my great aunts farm/mansion. To see my photo album click here.

Well, I'm tired. We painted the kitchen to day and i had the daunting task of the ceiling. So this is all for tonight.

Later,
AJ

Posted At|11:46 PM|

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