______Orsanovo 4.0 - Fall Calling ~ Coming Into My Own______

Sunday, June 26, 2005

\\*GREEEEEN ACRES IS THE PLACE TO BEEEE!*//

Ok well actully Twin Ponds Farm is the place to be. Thats my great aunts farm in Alabama. We went up there for a little weekend retreat and just got back this evening. I got some awesome photography shots and some other personal snapshots and movies I plan on posting when ever i get them uploaded.
We fished in one of the ponds (more like a small lake). It was the first time I had even held a rod n' reel in my hand. By the end of the day I had caught 5 of the 11 fish we used for the fish fry we had that night. Three bass and two blue gills. It was beyond fun. Just out there in the sund standing in the mud with the grazing cows a few feet away.

Posted At|10:29 PM|

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Monday, June 20, 2005

\\*Prophetically Odd?*//

Just after bitch about not feeling centered last night...something very strange happend when i went to bed. I cant say for sure what time it was but I'm assuming it was very early in the morning. I semi-woke up from an other wise very deep sleep thinking of a name.

Josh Lawrence.

Something told me it was ver important I remember it. I have no idea who this is. I've never heard the name in my life, and if I have it wasnt important enough to remember. So why was I subconciously thinking about it so intensely that it woke me up from a otherwise sound sleep?

Interesting...who ever Josh is I would suspect to keep a eye or ear out for him.

As a side note I also remember seing a pack of red note cards that had "Thank You" written on the front in gold foil sitting in a plastic bag on our dining table. I remember feeling mad but not being able to say anything about for some reason. I've been meaning to pick up some note cards and expressed to my grandmother that I do not want any that actully say thank you on them. She had run some errands and picked up a few things at walmart this morning before I woke up.
I descibed the cards in my dream and how i saw them on the table. She replied back that they had exactly like that and I almost got them, but remembered that I said I didnt want it with preinscribation so she didnt.....

Posted At|11:05 PM|

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Sunday, June 19, 2005

\\*"I am bored with it all" - Churchill*//

I am.

Simply...imperitivly.

Bored.

Many big things are happening. A lot of things. But my undertone for everything is just...blah. Nothing's quite that important. My eyes feel constantly heavy and my head still physically feels spongey. I feel like I'm not thinking at my highest level. A feeling I've had for a while. It started to subside and my intuition and dreams were coming back very strong. I was dreaming vividly nearly every night, always in color.

However this feeling the spongeyness bolted back ever since my mom came back for her lil visit. I havent been able to concentrate or focus since, and there have been one maybe two dreams that I truly remember and even those werent in detail like my others.

I just dont feel centered.

I would try meditating but I dont know how and I cant focus long enough to read a site about it.

I have been highly seeking knowledge lately though. http://www.free-ed.net/free-ed/ is a great site I highly reccomend to anyone intrested in just learning.

'...But I thought she said she couldnt sit though reading pages of drawn out info'

They have video courses!...for some stuff. Archaeology is awesome really interesting they also have spanish(intermediate) and algebra.

It's help me kill a lot of time I'd other wise be killing playing SimJaffa(thats an inside joke)aka Legend of the Green Dragon. I'm not one for RPG's but this one is really funny and shiney brand new still in beta. So go help Eric and JT out and play! BTW I am Lt. Colonel Sam Carter - BEWARE THE UNRELENTING RATH OF MY RAMBLING TECHNOBABBLE! MUAHAHAH! Oh yeh and: Clan SGC RULES!

Ok I got nothing else. I guess thats it tonight.

dumm dee dumm...I have a new toy: a tripod for my digital camera.

I plan on taking it when we go up to Samson, AL to visit my great aunt (the title makes her sound older than she really is) she baught a house a few months back and my aunt sharon(acutlly my 2nd cousin once removed, but close to my moms age), who helped her move and goes up every few weekends, has been begging me and Nana to go since they got settled. Word is they have a pool...inground.

I like Samson already.

Oh right...moms coming home, bought the ticket myself.

God help us all.

Posted At|5:01 PM|

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Tuesday, June 14, 2005

\\*Re: Wow... - FUCK THAT!*//

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

Posted At|2:48 AM|

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Saturday, June 11, 2005

\\*HAHA America got it wrong!*//

I knew my 4 hours of repeat dialing just to get in 20 votes wasnt for nothing:

Repost from http://dreamtyme.org/:
Pre-orders for Bo Bice's single release of "In Your Heaven" (flip side will be "Vehicle", RAWR!), which comes out a week after Carrie Underwood's release of the the same single (flip side will be "Independence Day"), is outselling Carrie on both amazon.com (he's #3, she's #14)and barnesandnoble.com (he's #1, she's #4).
Go Bo!

Posted At|11:40 PM|

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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

\\*Curvy Chick - Chick Chat Fun Facts!*//

Reposted from Curvy Chick - Chick Chat Fun Facts! will eventually be moved to the "the girl" section

Oh the idiosynchrosies
What a nifty topic!

- I've had chicken pox twice! (not generaly supossed to happen)
- Stargate SG-1 (and practically all of SCI-FI Friday) is a guilty pleasure of mine.
- I have a subconcious fear of spending money and when i have to or someone im with does i break out in cold sweats involutarily, no matter the amount.
- I collect journals.
- I've never been in a state that doesnt touch the east coast.
- Ive never flown on a plane
- I love football, hockey, and nascar (Bucs! Lightning! Jeff Gordon!Woohoo!)
- I cannot cook to save my life.
- I sing made up opera songs in the shower!
- I think i may have been victorian or edwardian nobility in another life as I have an obbsesive fascination with "ball gown" style dresses, crowns and tiaras and filigree jewlery.
- I was a complete 80's baby: Fraggle rock and alf were my favorite shows when i was little, I owned a talking teddy ruxpin, Feivel and a few cabbage patch kids, and when i learned to work the tape deck in my mom's Yugo at 3, it was because i couldnt get enough of the beach boys.
- I know a bit of html
- I hate driving!.
- I dont have a favorite color..i have favorite combonations: navy/white/silver(my future wedding colors), pink/purple/orange/brown, pink/brown, pink/black, turquoise/purple/bright green
- I sound like a guy on the phone!
- Like KM ive already picked out my childrens names (well atleast the first girl and first two boys): for the girl - Emma Alexondra (pron. Alexzondra, Emma for my grandmother and I love DOOL and the way its sounds when celeste says lexie's name) and for the boys - Declan Kim (my bf has always liked the name kim for a boy, and i like irish names and it was the only name that really fit with kim) and Jackson Sherod Leslie (this would be the 4th generation using one or more of these names: My great grand father was Leslie "Les" Jackson, my grand father was Sherod Leslie "S.L.", and my Uncle is Sherod Jackson "Jack", and Jack is my favorite short form of the many possibles)
- Im big on geneology and have confirmed that i have both confederate and union soldiers as ancestors!
- on my stomach with my chin up like a bear rug is my most comfortable sleeping position
- my ring and pinky finger are double jointed
- I can do splits and bow and arrow
- was suspended form school twice in 12 years (once for a catfight in 7th grade, the second for PDA with my now current bf in 11th grade)
- Facial hair, tallness, older men are all attractive to me
- My first kiss occured one week ago last night

Ok i think im done.....i just kept thinking of more and more!
night yall

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Ami J.

Posted At|12:35 AM|

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Thursday, June 02, 2005

\\*Wow...*//

I say that with a happily breathless sigh.

If you noticied my post title isnt a quote, its because someone elses words could never possibly sum up May 31st, 2005.

It started with me being anxious about Bryan's dinner, wether or not he'd like the gift I got him, and the fact that had written absolutly nothing to go with his cards. It ended with me replaying one of the most incrediblybeautifulhotromantic moments of my life up til now over and over in my mind. I won't go into details. I'd prefer the exact memory only be shared by us, but if he's reading this...Bryan its been three days and im still having to catch my breath everytime i think about it! You got me. Good.

This of course was just one of two major events that happened that day the second of which is, life changing. Not to say the first isn't, you never really know do you? Lol. I got my diploma! I graduated! I'm done with the hell they call high school. It was very funny actully. Bry didnt attend his ceremony (i would'nt have either, if i had know about it, were just both not into the pomp and circumstance deal) Well, when his mom went to pick up his diploma from the registrar, they included a ceremony program. Later on she was looking through it and saw my name. Well Bry called me to tell me the semi-hopefull news. We werent home so when i saw his number on the ID I called him back and his mom answered and told me of her fantastic find, and recommended I call the school registrar. And the rest is as they say, history.

A third, minor thing that happened that day; that has quite a bit less impact on my life: I got my Pray for the Soul of Betty CD in the mail. Not really important but I had been waiting on it for 5 1/2 weeks! And it was nice to see it in the mailbox after we got home.

So now come the decisions. That old teenage angsty cliche about ...'what's next?....I don't know' is my reality for the time being. I wish IdyllicMom was here to help she'd be awesome...right now I think I'd settle for my mom. Nana just doesnt get, the "HEY I STILL HAVE BIG DREAMS!" part of things. My mom doesnt exactly either but, shes a bit more accepting. Being with Bry affects some things, maybe. Money (or lack of) affects many choices. My own fears, hang-ups, and idiosynchrosies; are all tossed in there as well. I want to act, performing deep down is my passion. HCC has been tossed around forever, as a means for this. Vancouver is still very much on my mind, but seems more and more far off. And then theres LA. My mom is there, acting (and waitressing, lol) jobs are there. Is a new life there? Gah! That old adage about the answer to one question being a thousand more questions is true.

Well I'm tired, theres no way I'm making it till 4am for "Chimera". Too bad too, thats a real sam/jack ship-important episode. Once ain't that bad: I'll catch the second airing at 12am tommorow. Heh..it always ends with Stargate, guess thats why im a fan.

G'night all.
AJ

Posted At|4:40 PM|

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